#idk how to feell

[mcybree]

Is anyone else around here in a (or have been in a) fan-hosted life series. do you guys wanna go in a circle and share how it went. do you guys wanna compare notes

[heartmaddie]

i have so many thoughts for so many different fics maybe that's my problem

[lilpuffyart]

Ohhhh end of the year is approaching. Say; what would you like to see more in/of my art?

[seilon]

text them shit about ur ex then, ruin his rep right back

just talked to one of my friends on the phone for a while and dw they already know everything I have to say more or less about him it’s just. I can’t force them to cut contact with him or anything especially without sounding like exactly what he makes me out to be (manipulative, controlling, whatever) so. as much as my friend has reassured me in a lot of ways I’m still sort of stuck at an impasse when it comes to Him

[jaca3rys]

Oh by the way not so friendly reminder

Not everyone has immediate access to a diagnosis. Being diagnosed is a privilege. Not everyone CAN get a diagnosis indefinitely. If you are professionally diagnosed good for you but not everyone has that privilege.

[kamiversee]

AHHH KAMI OBSESSED WITH MLN ALREADYYYY!! idk how im gonna choose choso or gojo i need them both already and it’s ONLY BEEN 1 CHAPTERR??? the banter with gojo and reader is sooooo cute and the way it’s mutual 🥹 but choso warning reader he’s gonna break her heart :((( maybe he’s just being jelly 🤗 CHOSO AND READER WILL BE ADORBSS LATER ON I CAN FEELL IT cannot wait for more chapters 😈

ME TOO DW BABES 😩 I’m having way more fun rewriting it this time in comparison to the first time I tried!

Gojo & the reader are my new obsession here 100% if yall read the original you’d see how much my writing has improved, especially in terms of dialogue 😭And Choso’s warning should be headed ngl :)

Anywho, yes Choso & the reader will be vrry cute soon dwdw

[anonygowose]

hi short vent post bc i am going through a rough time rn and i cannot express the despair i am going through alone.

kinda hoping this disappears into the void but i have to cry about it a little bit rn

i actively feel replaceable and forgettable and i feel like im in a place where im going to lose some of the closest online friends i have and i cant do anything about it but hope things get better. everyone feels so distant amd it truly feels like people are moving on to other things and like, thats ok but i feell so lonely. i dont have many friends besides them, which are all college friends who i love dearly but we dont communicate much due to internships and our own lives. idk, my online friendgroup is my safespace and it feels that it wont last, its hitting year 3 of us knowing each other and theres no reason why the group would split up besides distancing but idk. i hate how selfish i feel for feeling so left out but theres nothing i can do abt it. i love them sm but seeing them look so much happier with their other friends hurts so bad. i desperately wish i could be enough for anyone.

[draco-kasai]

They are rare, but, BNHA X Batman fics are awesome.

I like the ones where Izuku gets thrown back in time or even a different dimension and ends up growing up as Dick Grayson or even becomes a Wayne/Bat as Izuku.

However, I'm surprised I have yet to see one where Izuku goes back and turns out to be Tim. I mean, I get making him the first robin and all but common, TIM IS RIGHT THERE.

*side eye*

Like, Izuku doesn't even have that much in common with Dick. And I can't see him being the pun master with Juan(the left cheek) and Jim(the right cheek).

(For those who don't know, the names are cannon names for Dick's ass cheeks)

Considering all the Izuku fics that are out there, he always turns out to be a cryptied, sleep deprived, coffee addict that knows how to hack...

REMIND YOU OF ANYONE?! *jazz hands over Tim Drake*

idk, I just feell like I need a Izuku is Tim fic.

*side eye intensifies*

[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

rant?? idfk pt 2

whoever said highschool is the best years of ur life needs to be kicked in the head by a horse. i mean really i can only think of like 5 ppl that i go to school w that are having an even remotely good time. i mean really im swamped w school work and chores and looking at college and carreers and such i do have a lot of free weekends tho due to my lack of social skills and life. speaking of that i have like insane FOMO for someone whos got fairly bad social anxiety. like everytime i see insta posts from someones hazy house party i desperately wished i was invited but im no good at parties. i stand in the corner or w the pet w my drink and look at my phone w headphones on so i dont get overwhelmed. and thats at family parties so id be even worse at one w ppl idk. still i want an invite. one time this girl i sit next to in my spanish class was telling me abt how she needed someone to bring to a parking lot party to watch ppl drag race and do donuts at 3am on a friday and she kept complaining abt not having anyone to go w and going thru a list of ppl she could invite. she couldve invited me!!! i wouldve at least tried to go tho my house is just abt impossible to sneak out of cause of the alarm but still an invite would be nice. i mean jeez she was kinda rude abt that. life kinda sux at the moment i mean could be worse but could also be a hell of a lot better. been feelling kinda depressed lately it could be that ive been couped up the past few days or that the weathers been so shitty who fucking knows. just been kinda down i need adventure. and maybe some socializing. i plan on seeing my 2 friends on wednesday at the mall so some retail therapy should do me good and i plan on calling my bf sometime this week so hopefullly that should be nice

[afreakingdork]

I know this isn't a reaction blog or whatever those type of blogs are called, but im really curious, how would WS!Donnie feel if reader was asexual and not very interested in sex? As an ace myself who enjoys smut but has never really thought about it for irl, it gets me thinking. Especially so since our beloved Donald is very much sex-positive. My first thought would be that he's a bit conflicted but is understanding and fine with it, along with some minor slip-ups. But idk! What do you think? (Sorry if this question is off or odd, feell free to pass if you're not comfortable answering! :3)

So I've actually thought about this! I love doing thought exercises within the bounds of characters and I don't think that edges into reactions/whatever blogs! I know I've been pretty vocal about that and I still can't describe the flavor, but that's not what you're here for!

Anyway! As sexually charged as their relationship is, I truly don't think WS!Donnie would mind if his partner was ace. Sex isn't something that is make or break it for him. He likes having it, but when he doesn't, it's not like he's thinking about getting his dick wet. For one, he barely had the time before and now he's got a ton of others things to catch up on with that being a very low priority. He would probably still have the same touchy need though. For what he doesn't crave in sex, he absolutely craves intimacy (whether he even realizes or would admit it).

A huge component in sex for him is pleasing his partner. Despite all the differences, at his core he's still Rise!Donatello. He's a people pleaser and wants praise. Knowing his partner is getting pleasure from something he's done or that's solely by his hand is what's most attractive to him~

So yeah, I doubt he'd be conflicted at all! Thanks for giving me the chance to throw these thoughts out there!

[jackienautism]

Now I’m really curious about your thoughts on the other counselors. I don’t really have any strong opinions on them much tbh idk why. Maybe it’s the whole “horny teenager” trope or something

(finally getting around to this. sorry for taking so long dfkldg)

yeaaaah fair enough dfgjndg thats exactly why i get pissed off playing the game tbh. it just becomes so convoluted with this romantic whatever bullshit that it gets SUPER TIRING...... but that's ok though bc silas kaylee and caleb need someone to love them unconditionally right?

anywho! i appreciate you wanting to see my other unfiltered opinions on the characters kdfgdfjg bc gosh do i have a lot. especcially for TQ bitches. as i just ssaid,

i AM going to get unfiltered and potentially brutal so if anyone is your ultimate bestie i recommend not reading (abi and laura are safe though of course<3) (mainly because nothing about either of them necessarily irritated me LOL and im easy to irritate)

im going to reference my thoughts on the characters from a note i wrote after playing through like ? chapter 4 for the first time. but honestly not miuch has changed. and just to preface this a good portion of my negative opinions come from the campfire scene in chapter 2 LOL like. when i first played the game i began disliking like more than half the characters here alone

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dylan: talked about him here (its not positive)

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nick: i just think hes a prick who doesn't deserve abi 🤷 of course he was given the short end of the stick in terms of screentime, but its kind of funny bc kaitlyn has a similar amount of Actual walk around time and she's there like. the entire game LMAO so yeah that pisses me off. nick has 3 moments where you play as him, and kaitlyn has 5/6, depending on how you separate her section in chapter 10. they both have the same amount of Get To Explore And Walk Around time though, which is a whopping total of one thanks guys. anywho. even before he began acting like a creep i didnt like him lol... and no surprise but it all stems from chapter 2...

long story short, i dont doubt that nick actually cares for abi and likes her but i think in the grand scheme of things it mostly has to do w/ him wanting tits and ass... sort of similar to mike's whole deal... and i believe this based on the bullshit he pulls w/ emma. yeah he says that "tHiS mIgHt NoT bE a GoOd IdEa" and yet he still plays along despite dylan saying that 2 people can kiss AS LONG AS everyone consents. he could've gotten out of the situation. and yet he fucking didnt. i dont care if he didnt realize the consequences of his actions, if he TRULY liked abi he wouldnt have done this shit in the first place. "ive had my moments, im not proud of some of the stuff ive done" DOG YOU JUST HAD A MOMENT AND YOURE NOT EVEN FUCKING APOLOGIZING TO THE PERSON YOU HURT!!!!!! idc if it technically wasnt totally his fault. he still was involved in humiliating and upsetting abi. all he blames it on is playing alonog with emma's plan to make jacob jealous and aside from that just being such a shitty anf fucked up excuse in general, its not even ???? true?????????? GOD. IM SORRY. THE WHOLE SITUATION MAKES ME SO UPSET

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jacob: as said in my previous TQ / UD rankings... i really flip flop w/ him alot. however im def leaning towards neutral to dislike NGL. i HAAATED his whole thing w/ emma like incredibly so. however. i did feell real bad for him during chapter 1, despite already knowing that he was the one to bust the truck up and keep everyone there another night. i felt bad despite already having a reason TO dislike him. kaitlyn was being mean for no reason. nick and dylan were being mean for no reason. it's just... it's almost like he was being used as the group's laughing stock. but as time went on i just continually became less and less willing to sympathize . hell, he's just a INFINITELY less sympathetic josh... of course seeing him crying and upset in ch 3 was sad, but at this point i don't really know what he expected im sorry. he really dragged all these other people into his bullshit with emma. and it's more than clear how emma feels about their relationship, of course emma wasn't great either with him, but jacob isn't an angel ... EITHER in this situation. of COURSE he couldn’t have known that the night would go the way it does, but it doesn’t negate the fact that fucking up the truck was a shitty move regardless LMAO as said previously, i HAAATe how fucking possessive he is of her. like when nick tells jacob that he could see what emma wantss? and jacob just laughs it off? it's so fucking stupid dog. character wise though, he of course has a lot going for him and i can see why people find appeal in him. especially seeing hwo many stereotypes theyre subverting, in terms of jacob showing emotions and shit. but for me personally, it's a no

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ryan: my man🤝 even after all this time.... i find him very respectable and i very much appreciate him. similar to my deal w/ abi, even his more "asshole-ish" moments / dialogue choices (aside from a few off the top of my head LOL) are like. justified... and in character... like. him being so pissed off at and wary of laura? like????? laura is my beloved but this random girl just popped out of nowhere, killed one of his closest friends, and now wants to kill what he has of a father figure? like yeah id be acting like ryan too if i were put into his situation LMAO yeah you can be annoyed w/ his actions and behavior, but in context? the way he's acting is understandable and justified. it doesnt DESERVE criticism, because there's nothing to criticize! he's acting as any normal person would! of COURSE it's annoying how he doesn't BELIEVE laura, that's a whole other can of worms, but overall he's allowed to be a pissed off little bitch. and him potentially going against the whole party idea? that line of dialogue is just more in character for him i will not accept any other answer. it makes no sense that he'd suddenly go against chris' word. and it PISSES ME OOOOFF seeing how the game still like ? has ryan show up to the party despite being adamant against it.

ANYWAY.... ppl don't appreciate his autistic swag like i do. "he has no character" "he's boring" TO YOU. y'all rly see a character mainly speak in a monotone voice and rarely smile / show expression and go. yeah he's boring . do you not see the like . connotations of that. like be for real. he’s like. one of the only few genuinely good ppl here lmao and seeing how chris says that ryan is one of his fave counselors and how he TRUSTS him enough to hold all this responsibility + have all these in depth talks w him it’s just. you see what kind of person ryan is just from that. and how so far ryan is the only character (while you’re in control) who’s able to interject whatever bullshit is being said at the moment it just. i’m sorry. he’s just a good guy. i respect how he’s willing to go against the bulk of the group during the whole party or lodge thing. i also respect that he’s willing to put a fucking end to dylan’s invasive fucked up truth question. i KNOW that it all depends on the Player to choose these specific options BUT. they just fit ryan’s character more so🤷 what can i say. fuck everyone else

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max: my bf (real)

laura: my gf (real)

abi: me (irl)

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emma: in my original note i said that i was leaning torwards neutral to dislike lmao....... oh have the turns havbe tabled. anywho. i think shes such a stupid dumbass bitch. she's so funny for no goddamn reason. i am shoving her down a flight of stairs. i love her character sooo much. i hate how she acted with jacob (despite most of it being her people pleaser side Showing but, that's a whole different conversation i am willing to have). she's suuuuch a beloved but gooooooood god i draw the line at being such a shitty friend to abi. that's my biggest complaint when it comes to emma and her actions. i understand that she has a moment where she's like "you're my best friend, i need you" and i fucking eat that shit up but almost everything else that happens and happens prior..... just goddddddddddddddddddddddddddd

to get started. most of this is gonna be nitpicky and personal shit, so if you think it's small and shouldn't be addressed, then you're probably right LOL im just ultra sensitive to this sort of stuff due to past personal experiences. ANYWAY!!!!!! you know the little teasy comment emma makes towards abi after you avoid hitting the squirrel? how she's like, "this is her first time asking a guy out like EVER"? it makes me wanna beat her up fr kldfggnfg bc it's like... it's not a thing to joke about... i see sooo much of myself in abi meaning i see her as autistic and that's just. you know how much being autistic hinders those sort of abilities? i obviously can't say for sure but, seeing how abi later talks about people wantingher to interact w/ others better? hence why she went to summer camp in the first place? i'd say that probably isn't too outrageous to think...

and sort of continuing off that same topic, when abi is having trouble choosing someone for truth or dare, how emma is just like. "ding ding ding, my turn!" LIKE. AS HER FRIEND. WHO PROBABLY KNOWS ABOUT HOW MUCH ABI STRUGGLES SOCIALLY. DON'T YOU THINK SHE'D BE LIKE? "OHH ABI JUST PICKK ME" INSTEAD OF HUMILIATING HER? LIKE. BC THERES SOOO MANY DIFF WAYS OF MOVING ON AND HELPING ABI OUT....... GOING ABOUT IT THW WAY EMMA DID ISN'T THE WAY TO GO......... ESPECIALLY KNNOWING HOW SOCIALLY ANXIOUS ABI IS.... anyway. while we're on the campfire scene, it's so fucked why she chooses to kiss nick lmao like ok yeah it may work in the end (potentially) but its still ?????????????? girl you know how much abi likes nick (SUPPOSEDLY) why go about this shit in the most destructive way possible? and what makes me even MORe mad is that. they dont even ever address this scene ever again???? despite it being such a huge and humiliating and probably traumatizing moment for abi??????????? YES they're able to have a more in depth andf heart to heart conversation about their relationship. but its not fucking enough! bc that fucking stupid ass dare and its outcome was the catalyst for the rest of the night's events lmao! imagine beign brushed aside and seen as a social fucking experiment for your entire life. which is something im SURE abi has felt and experienced. and emma, her best friend, LITERALLY CONTRIBUTES TO THAT!!!!!! ITS SO FUCKED AND IT MAKES ME SO ANGRY. i could probably go on about this topic but ill leabe it for a separate post i guess anyway if i were abi id be fucking pissed off and upset

her character means so very much to be like her whole people pleaser and "curate myself to each individual person ive ever met to keep them fromn leaving me" resonates so so much with me and i love it so much. ive talked about this b4 in a previous post but i can only imagine how lonely she feels, acting the way she acts. no one will ever truly know who she is. shes in a constant state of performance. every single person she's ever met has a different perception of her in their head. and, in one way or another, it's all wrong!!!! i love you emma mountebank i love you abigail blyg

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kaitlyn: i wont even lie i instantly fell in love w her after hearing the INSANE shit she says fnsjfjsnf esp felt it after the “jacob go upstairs. jacob get bag. kaitlyn moves on with her goddamn life” fell in love fr. and her whole stupid monologue after jacob was like "yeah i mean, what did i expect would happen?" SHES LITERALLY INSANE. but. like. i was not and still Am not happy w how she treated abi during the campfire scene though. due to 1. her telling abi to basically hurry the fuck up despite seeing how much she was GENUINELY struggling, and also potentially knowing about her social struggles prior. bc they're friends. right? and 2. just coming up wiht the dare in general lol it was such a fucked up thing to do and as ive said w/ emma, the fact theyre unable to actually jhave a convo abt it later is suuuuper dumb and shitty imo. esp seeing just how upset abi got, and the most fucked up thing is, neither kaitlyn NOR emma seem to show any remorse for it!!!!! that's just so fucked up

anywho. hate how both of their asian girls (emily in until dawn) are characterized as bossy and very. my way or the highway. it’s actually real fucked up in that light. fuck you supermassive. y’all are lucky that these 2 characters are their respective games’ baddest bitches . i SUPPOSE it isn’t THAT as big of a deal in this game bc. there are like. objectively more unlikable characters (in the guys AND girls) so kaitlyn doesn’t stand out as much (as emily did. she was practically written to be hated. bc NO ONE ELSE was as strong personality wise as her. i suppose jess comes close but 1. i think ppl shit on her for other stupid shit anyway SO and 2. she effs off for more than half the game) but it still doesn’t make it ok lmao. bc it’s a trend that is very :/ mmmmmmm. even if it’s not that much of a cliche stereotype for asian women, seeing them write both of their asian girls ALMOST THE EXACT SAME WAY is a bit sussy goddamn baka. went off a bit there lmao. anyway. i’m a weak pussy bitch and after she softened after abi returned freaked out i 😭 i love you. more positive (and NON GUY related) interactions between the girlies please. i literally love her relationship w/ abi so much it's so interesting to me.

and just... to talk about her character real quick, i mmentioned in my tier list that her character frustrates me. and you wanna know why? ive talked abt this b4 but her character is basically a watered down emily davis. and i say this bc. they both overall are the same archetype. except. in kaitlyn's case. there's really no reason for me to like ???? feel bad for her? djjfggkj LIKE. THERE'S LITTLE TO NO SUBSTANCE TO HER CHARACTER.... AND THERE CERTAINLY ISNT MUCH TO FEEL SYMPATHETIC FOR..... i say this bc. almost all the other TQ characters have this moment of ): aw, here's why i should care about and feel bad for you. BUT KAITLYN????? NEVER REALLY OUTRIGHT HAS THAT MOMENT,..... it's almsot like they threw her in there and threw in her characteristics last second.... nothing's really established w/ her. you just. you just keeo finding new stuff about her as the game goes on. like. oh. shes a good shot. oh. she cares about abi. and shit like that. im probably explaining this so terribly rn but hopefully some sense can be made from this scramble. it's just.... thye toook away the interesting aspect(s) of emily'scharacter (her anxiety, her fear of death, her complex to be protected while being fully capable of protecting herslef in times of danger etc etc) and thus gave us kaitlyn. to me she just. she isnt that interesting character wise! there isnt much there for me to grow attached to! people only like her bc shes associated w/ dylan! like shes one of those characters where you sort of HAVE to mold and shape into something that's familiar and Good

re reading htis it really sounds like i don't like her fdjkdg BUT I DO I PROMISE.... i gotta stick w/ my asian girls

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abi but for real: 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 do i even need to say anything? its like supermassive made a character purposely JessCore or something like that. i like. haven’t gone In Depth abt why i got so fucked up over what everyone else did to her during the camp fire scene but. know that it hit a little toooooo fucking close to home. like. I Could See Me Sitting There In Abi’s Spot and it HUUUUUUURT!!!!!!!!!!!! like ): seeing her avert her gaze and how she was fumbling over her words i ))): LIKE. AUGHH. esp after being asked THAT question? since not sleeping w/ anyone by this age is seen as “abnormal”? i could feel that so bad man ): no one deserves to be singled out like that. esp not a VERY much autistic girl who is pretty clear to be on the “outside” of the group. bc she’s not ���normal” or not “like everyone else here” and it’s just. fuck you all fr choke. enough of that. i just. she’s so fucking cute too? like girl i love you so MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! her lil like. expressive noises and shit are so awesome and make me happy fnsjfjsf you only see them like twice BUT. you don’t really see that from the other characters. so basically: stims. autism. yeah. they rly made abi a little TOO realistic nd relatable fnsjfnnsf but ohhhh man do i love her oh so much. after the camp fire scene i was just. she’s my friend now fuck all of you

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laura but for real: I MISSED HER AND MAX SOOOOO BAD WHILE PLAYING THROUGH CHAPTERS 1 - 6 SKLDDFJDF i was literally so upset and sad seeing that they werent at camp after the prologue. du eto like literallty all of the characters getting on my nerves I WANTED THEM TO COME HOME SOOOO BAD.... AFTER THE CAMP FIRE SCENE EVERYTHING WENT DOWNHILL AND I MIIISSSEED THEM SOO MUCH i needed them back for real. other than that though, i dont have much to say about laura. i mean of course she's my BELOVED i mean look at my user but. yeah! i think about her often and project some anger shit onto her<3 specifically towards travis for specific and personal reasons<3 even if it's not like character stuff or w/e i think about, i often just rotate herin my mind. i love her so much. plus she's literally a combo of emily and sam aka my 2 fave UD characters how could i not love her?

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max but for real: i honestly dont have much to say abt him? and i suppose he and laura arent /technically/ a part of the other counselors since they never, yk, showed up. but w/e fdfjgndg i think he's neat. i honestly thought he was like one of the only Good Guys of the game when first playing through,. and that still holds true! i still see ryan as a great guy too though. max just seems like such a good partner and guy in general and i love him. don't necessarily think about him much but as i said before, he's my bf (real)

[abandonedsdjfhcvndfbv]

Sorry this got long so readmore lol

Like just a combo wombo of Like idk even the slightest of encouragement sometimes makes my day and today it did. and then combined with nice dreams and waking up like god this is the besti've woken up in a while meanwhile like the night before i literally woke up audibly saying what the fuck because i've been waking up really badly. And then the combo of even just slight encouragement like slight belief in myself and also just reading some cool shit and listening to some nice shit and being excited about planning on learning music and excited about stories and regaining hope in regards to maybe being able to write something worthwhile someday just like how i might one day be a person that's worth somehting after i get out of here and stop making compromises that are slowly killing me and urhghhrhghh i feel like a total sap rn but talking to people about how i want to get out and having people like just know that about me as a fact that i want to get out, i should get out, i'd be happier if i got out, it's so nice, and knowing some people share these sentiments, and knowing we might both get out, it's so nice, i just wish we could all get out together and make it possible and be able to live????? This is the unth fucking time i post about something similar to this but it makes me so emotional like ever since i was fucking 6 or something i always had a vague understanding that i won't get out of here but i think i think i might be able to and it's real that misery isn't all there is to life and that home doesn't have to be the same miserable thing it's always been it's sort of revolutionary because it was one of those things that i just understood that like how we weren't able to travel like all my classmates could i wouldn't be able to get out of here either. We're barely getting by so we can't get out so i can't get out because i am molded to my family because i'm small. But now i'm not small anymore and i can get out!!!!!!!!!! Even just thinking it i feell like i'm gonna die before i can even do it but fuck this is going on too long i don't wanna talk about this shit anymore. it keeps almost making me cr but then it doesnt so it just makes my head hurt

[maddychen]

So ever since i got a know how about astrology i was only here for the love and support i got from the my fellow astro geeks it was good to know that i'm not the only one struggling & kinda cathartic i would say ...So I am part of alot of astro groups and meme pages and i must say i loved reading these posts with my morning tea ... I was hearing about venus retrograde is coming and bla bla .. warnings like dont text your ex and dont start and love and i was like i do not have an ex definitely not looking for love either i enjoy being alone and all untill i started talking to someone as this person was adamant about friends... well boredom makes u do things u dont usually so kept just replying out of boredom untill he started being overly sweet and interested in my hobbies and sending me long voice messages and i couldnt help praising his sweet voice :-; as every guy trying to woo any girl he was so polite and sophisticated i just felt i shouldnt ghost him and just kept it to chatting . It all started in may but idk recently saw him around some girl being all sweet and nice he even changed his relationship status from widowed to single 😂 and suddenly i'm feeling very sad thinking about all the selfies he used to send me looking so tall and sweet ... I must say someone tall and sporty with sweet voice is such a crazy combo ive never seen ... Now that i'm sad all these retrograde shit hit me that i shouldnt have talked to him feeling all lonely for the moment lol i hope this feellings end soon since i'm not used to it ... I hope his relationship lasts with that girl ... i feel so bad inside was it really love /infactuation ? in two months only ... ? or is it just jealousy seeing someone else being treated the same ...

[pinkmoondoll9shihtzu]

It’s good to take breaks from internet, and you don’t owe us anything, but I just hope you know how happy and not alone I feel reading your posts! 💕💕

that makes me happi 2 kno that u feell this way anon.. dont worry, im not goin anywhere! ver y grateful for my tumblr account n the cozy ecosystem of lovely ppl it brings to my life, i have a good hthing going here, especially compared to the insincere landscape of other social medias. writing is important to me, been online journaling since i was 17, cldnt stop now even if i wanted to ^^ the main function of me taking a break from online world is just tht im not into scrolling anymore. cus it messes w ur brain pleasure receptors & blahblah idk i just resent the instant gratification of it all. feel mch better when i spend hthat time exploring my own mind+focusing on my little projects. ty again anon , ill always b around #<3!!!

[ippidk]

heavy vent ahaaahh

Ive been in the mental hospital for a few weeks now and havent been progressing at all in fact i havent got a single session therapy smh idk its super weird i have no organisation my dumbass dpesnt understand whats going on and that no one gaf but no one will ever help me i guess my problems arent severe enough. I want to kms so bad, Im so lonely I wish I had friends but I genuinely cannot stand people the world is sp scary I have to kms I have to kms i am so tired but I cant even sleep,I cant stop crying. I cant stop crying. I have no reason to keep going except mizu5 and the next bsd chapter but thats really it thats all i can look forward to. When i get out of here I am going to hang myself as soon as I can. Help wont come. I‘m suffering but Im still not suffering enough for my feelings to feel valid. I hate how severely my autism impacts me that I genuinely dont understand how relationships form.i hate it i hate it i hate it.Ill never have friends anf ill never have a hug or reasurringly have my hands held, do you knpw how much that hurts?Still my feelings arent valid. I dont even fit in with the mentally ill or whatever. I dont belong anywhere. I dont exist. It feels like everypne here has their shit together but the more time i spend in this room the worse i feell!!!! I wanna klsm suicidesuicididid………….

I always hear people on the internet talk about doing things. Many people like doing different things. But Its like im moving too slow. The worlds moving too fast. I also dont know why i cant connect to my body at all. The way im perceived is unimportant sonce i am fundamentally uncomfortable with physical reality people whatever,, my thpughts still cant seem to escape a box - thoughts always racing, and yet they always miss something everyone else has. I do the same things everyday. My brain is corrupted. I cant do this

[happypotato48]

Wandee Goodday EP 6 Unhinged Tangent Thoughts

first thing first i would like to issue formal apology to all the Ter haters out there. i can't fix this man i think nobody can, even hephaestus himself would probably give up on this mess. i'm so sorry for in my hubris and horniness i've let Pod pretty face blinded me to the truth (not really i hate him from day one but still 100% would let this man ruin my life cause i'm trash like that baby!)

also also this week random music that popped up in my head during my watch is this.

Something something they're already married even though they're not actually dating.

Hehehe i did this all the time, messy bitch represent!

one of the words here also can means "hard" wink wink.

What are they talking about, sorry i got distracted by Yak's big Bahoogas!

So, I already ripped my first elephant pants yesterday after only wore it two times. haha, curse me and my fatbutt. definitely going to buy more tho that thing is super comfy in thailand weather.

"Only let good dicks in"

I'm seeing potential here. WHAT! it's not like they're actually related irl >.>

Damn Dee you even put on his pants.

Why are you like this! bitch you wears his pants right now. you're down so bad you already in whatever country that is on the other side of the world from thailand.

I thought he was going to point downward when i first watched this. hehehe.

Fuck this dude. and yes i mean both ways. look look if i was pining for this ahole for 8 years at least i need to get 1 good fuck out of it, after that we can stop talking to each other.

"Sure Jan"

I love this show so much also best "product placement" ever.

These nerds i can't even with them.

Eyebrows nooo!

"Prepare for trouble and make it double!"

Dee, you're like an open book and not even a good one.

Ok ok, so i think this take place in yaowarat which is i think where Cher is from so maybe there is more to this then just loan sharks. and the sequel/prequel book that i haven't read yet, Wansook Wittaya is a story of how Yei and Cher got together. so maybe they're pulling some stuff from that book. idk, just random thought.

With this scene now i'm on the mind set that Cher wasn't really thinking that Yei has someone else in the other ep. he just insecure that after being together for so long their relationship is going stale. that's my read at least cause he wasn't seemed very jealous in that ep.

Ahhhhhhhhh they're so cute. i'm so happy we finally got more cute stuff with this two in one ep.

Meh it still a hellhole full of rich Aholes, but yeah when the moments are right that place can feels magical sometime.

I love this corny ass man so much.

it looks like love, Dee, it looks like love.

I'm swooned. floored and full. this ep gave me so many tender moments. and god i loved these two dumb nerds so much. even though they're definitely realized their true feelling, they're still being very loveablely dumb about it. Dee being in denied and Yak continuing to sends his signals all over the place. but finally look like that will come to an end in the next ep and i'm for one ready for it.